lucky.
today, i am overwhelmed. i’m not even sure what “whelmed” means to be even over that, but i’m pretty sure 
that that is what this feels like.
i am one lucky girl.
when i think about when nick was ewan’s age and how little we had in material blessings, how volatile life left, how raw my emotional well being was, i’m just run over with thankfulness for my life as i now know and have it.
what we have been able to provide for our children, all three of them, is beyond what i had ever hoped. no fear for a healthy meal (while i almost wonder if holden is afraid of a healthy meal). always a warm or cool house when needed. and there is tons, and i do mean tons, of love to go around.
thank you my love.
